I need to start by telling you all that I don't truly know what quiet time is. I haven't so much as gone to the bathroom by myself for 13 years. (OK, I do use the loo alone at work, let's not go too far.) In fact, just recently I became aware of the fact that I was actually in the bathroom alone! It was kind of a big day for me. Seriously, the only way I was able to have uninterrupted "quiet time" with my husband was after I told my son what we were doing -- he does not bother us any more, nor does he let his sister knock! It's great.
So, all that to say that a regular quiet time with God has not been a part of my life for a long time. I do get times here and there, but they are not regular or daily. I am currently on a journey to draw yet closer to God. He is calling me to pursue more of Him and I really want to. However, I am having a hard time finding the...time. There is a change in me. I am less interested by my Netflicks queue and other distractions. What I want is more of God, more art in my life, more connection. I think part of my issue is lack of practice. When I find myself with time to do these things, I don't think to do them. I need to become more purposeful. There is a line in a book I'm reading that talks about our children seeing us as radical Christians, sold out to following Jesus. I so love that idea. I want my children to know that there is truly no sacrifice too big when it comes to Christ. I want to give everything to Him -- and right now I'm not giving Him everything. There is more I can give and I don't want to wait until I'm hit upside the head with that 2x4.
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