What is a 2x4 girl

Wait, what is a 2x4 girl you ask?  I affectionately call myself this because it seems that while Jesus prefers to whisper to me in His daily guidance through my life, there are more times than I care for when a 2x4 accross my head is required to get my attention and effect change.  I'm grateful for these because ultimately, I want to be on God's path, not my own.  At least most of the time I want that.  I admit, there are times I want to be on my own path and I pretend I can't hear or push God away in order to allow myself such luxuries as selfishness, selfcenteredness, pride... well, I could go on, but you get the picture.

What is different about God's 2x4 vs. one from the world is that when God takes me out to the shed for a "talk" it's done with such loving care that I can hardly be angry.  Most of the anger is directed at myself though because I realize, with perfect hindsight, I've done it again.  Jesus is there to pick me up and put me right and we keep moving forward on this journey.

Jealous

I admit to being jealous of all those creative bloggers out there who have found their voice and wax lyrical about all kinds of topics, managing to pull them all together in a cohesive manner.  I have so much to say and share (I am an extrovert), but who really wants to listen to me?  I'm constantly telling myself to slow down and be quiet and let others have a chance on input into any given conversation. 

I've always wanted to do so many things and life has other ideas for me.  I'm truly not complaining, or at least trying not to.  But I can't let go of all the stuff inside of me that wants a home.

So, here I am with yet another blog I will attempt to keep up with.  I may have finally found my voice... I guess we'll see.